It’s New Year’s Eve! I’ve been trying to find moments to be still. It’s hard for me (a perpetual multitasker) to calm myself and my mind, unplug and step away. And, in its own way, stillness is hard.
2013 was such an exquisitely difficult year for me. Milo was born, Sophie was diagnosed with autism, I learned to parent two children instead of one, we moved, started a 20-hours-a-week therapy schedule, Michael started graduate school, and we jumped over, around, and through a lot of obstacles.
2014 makes me think of the quote “There are years that ask questions and years that answer” by Zora Neale Hurston. This was, in most ways, a year for both. We settled into ourselves a bit. Everyone grew up some. Milo is talking nearly as much as Sophie is and has such a sweet and fiery personality. Sophie started special needs preschool this fall, and continues to blow us away with her courage, determination, and sweetness. I tried a few new things on the blog this year (taking on a few sponsored posts and some contributor work at a few great blogs).
We tried lots of new things. We had a big medical scare this fall when Sophie’s behavior suggested she might have a tumor (she doesn’t). It was a year of being brave. Not that I consider myself especially brave–I call my mom all the time for a pep talk, and spend lots of time reading, researching, and praying for answers. But we did a lot of hard things this year. I feel closer to my family and closer to God.
As I look forward to 2015, I have a few hopes.
1. I want to choose gratitude. I really do believe that gratitude grounds us and helps us see the magic around us. Miracles are everywhere, and I want to see them. Being grateful doesn’t mean I don’t acknowledge or experience hard things, but it helps supply me with hope and energy to keep moving.
2. I want to be more present. Less multi-tasking, more time purposefully spent. This means planning ahead of time to use my time wisely, but I’m up for the challenge. I want to be really with my family when it’s family time. I want to focus on work or service when I’m doing those things. I also want to make time for stillness–whether that’s during a run, or reading a book, or working on a project. Be where I am, do what I’m doing. Be present.
3. I’m ready for an adventure. This might mean planning a far-off vacation, or taking a class, or starting a new list (like the 101 Things to Do in 1001 Days list we did a few years ago). I’m ready to learn, try, and experience something new.
If I had to choose a word or a theme for next year, it’d be John 14:27:
Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.
I can’t get that verse out of my head. I’m seeking peace. Peace in my relationships. Peace in my work. Peace in my life.
I think it’s the perfect, most beautiful word I could choose for the year. I’m specifically thinking of the three areas above (relationships, work, life), but this idea can extend to spirituality, finances, how you feel about yourself or your body, home organization, even the music or books you choose. I love it!